Over the past several weeks several things added themselves to my life. I somehow ended up on the Prayer Leadership Team (PTL) at Remembrance, I acquired some books that have had quite an impact on me and I have been studying spiritual disciplines, the power of the Holy Spirit, listening prayer, spiritual warfare and lies of the devil. All of this combined with some quality time with God and I felt like I could burst with all that He was teaching me. I wrote in my journal "I feel like I'm going to explode trying to contain all that you are teaching me. Like something new is looming ahead of me but it is still just slightly too dark to see it. The dawn is coming, it is slightly pink on the horizon. Last night I was convinced that I'm entering a season of a huge change. The ground is thawing and I'm about to be able to move forward. It is spring!"
Last week in anticipation of the mission conference I felt led to spend the week prior to leaving fasting and praying. I have fasted several times in the past but it has never been anything like this. For the most part I didn't desire food, only time with God. I gave up TV, computer and food for three days and continued to feel more full and occupied than I had in months. Needless to say after that I was fired up about where God was going with all of this.
One of the first times of worship at the mission conference the worship leader led us in prayer for each other related to the season that our ministry is in. For example the first was summer- your ministry is going well, producing fruit, few difficulties. Or winter- things are slow and cold, the work is hard. I got so excited! God had told me clearly that I was in the spring of my ministry only days ago. Funny how he works like that. Now I'm back to being patient. My journal yesterday: " Yet sometimes spring feels so long! The snow melts and the sun is out for a few more hours, only to be followed by a week of damp and chill, and that one last wet grey snow. But this is the time the crocuses push through. Lord, please give me patience!"
To wrap this up, as I read what I've written I sound like a nut. Not that long ago if I had read this on someone else's blog I wouldn't have finished it, so thank you for everyone who hung in there to all of my mental wandering. I guess I'm getting more weird but really I don't care and as a matter of fact I like it. God is so good. I can't wait to see what is next!
Last week in anticipation of the mission conference I felt led to spend the week prior to leaving fasting and praying. I have fasted several times in the past but it has never been anything like this. For the most part I didn't desire food, only time with God. I gave up TV, computer and food for three days and continued to feel more full and occupied than I had in months. Needless to say after that I was fired up about where God was going with all of this.
One of the first times of worship at the mission conference the worship leader led us in prayer for each other related to the season that our ministry is in. For example the first was summer- your ministry is going well, producing fruit, few difficulties. Or winter- things are slow and cold, the work is hard. I got so excited! God had told me clearly that I was in the spring of my ministry only days ago. Funny how he works like that. Now I'm back to being patient. My journal yesterday: " Yet sometimes spring feels so long! The snow melts and the sun is out for a few more hours, only to be followed by a week of damp and chill, and that one last wet grey snow. But this is the time the crocuses push through. Lord, please give me patience!"
To wrap this up, as I read what I've written I sound like a nut. Not that long ago if I had read this on someone else's blog I wouldn't have finished it, so thank you for everyone who hung in there to all of my mental wandering. I guess I'm getting more weird but really I don't care and as a matter of fact I like it. God is so good. I can't wait to see what is next!
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