Yesterday I read:
You can’t fully experience, enter into, own, gain victory over, or learn from what you refuse to name.So today I'm trying to name it. Grief, I guess. Grieving the stuff I don't get to enjoy when I'm in Uganda. Like food, entertainment and creature comforts. I don't like that I'm so shallow but it is the truth. Grief also that I'm not a big part of the lives of my family and friends. I hate being so far away and not knowing what it going on with them. I hate goodbyes because they are so long in between. It will most likely be two, maybe more years before I'm back. There is a lot of life that happens in that much time.
I also hate that I'm here for six more weeks but I'm already dealing with it. The countdown seems permanently in the back of my mind. Wondering, will I do this again before I go or is this the last time? Will I see this person again or should be say bye now? Should I be doing more in the limited time I have? Am I already trying to do too much?
So now I've named it. Hopefully I can learn from it... Do you have anything you need to name?