Here is some God given insight I got yesterday that I'd like to share:
A few of these kids that we are working with have been hurt pretty badly- abuse, abandonment, whatever but they don't like being touched. They especially don't like being hugged (I can completely relate but I'm working on it and that is a different problem and a different post.) Anyway, one of the girls looked forlorne as we walked together so I reached down and gave her a hug. She went rigid. She was impossible to hug and I won't try it again right away. Later in the day a filthy, ragged little boy was sitting in the dust but he put his arms up to me and I couldn't help but pick him up. He was easy to hug!
In that moment God said to me- sometimes thats you. I know you are covered in your own filty but you are easy to hug...except when you are stiff and rigid with your barriers up! I've come to an understanding that I'm guilty as sin. My "rightesousness is as filthy rags". I can not come into the presence of God the way that I am. But I'm getting what I don't deserve! Stop putting your barriers up! I'm covered in grace! If I stop dwelling on how I can't be good enough for God and just accept what He has given me....
Don't misunderstand me- I have to face the stuff for which I need to be forgiven and I know that I deserve the wrath of an angry God.... but he isn't!
So, today I'm just one filthy, dirty kid telling another that God is God and that HE LOVES US!
7 comments:
hi jennifer, you are doing an awesome job,all of you , we at remembrance are praying for you to do GODS will and help the missionarys,my name is mike de graaf i know my brother lives accross the street from your dad. steve gave me info, so i can check on you and asks about prayer requests. i am proud of you and the whole team i know your dad is and surely our LORD! MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE. MIKE DE GRAAF
HI! all We are so glad that you made it. Some people will do any thing to get back in Kenya even if only for a few hours. It is so good to hear what is going and read your thoughts please keep them coming. We are praying for you three and miss you.Think warm thoughts of us and try to find away to bring home some warm sun shine when you come. Still single didgets temps hear. Love dad k
Jennifer, I can't wait for you to get back here so I can give you a big huge hug!
Seriously......I continue to be amazed at how God opens your eyes when you are in obedience to Him and trying to live out His will in your life. We continue to pray for you all. Keep the blog entries coming.
Jennifer- the post from "MOM" is really Marybeth....aparently, my gmail identity is that.....just to clarify.
DEAR JENNIFER, TELL BENJI I HOPE AND PRAY HE FEELS BETTER, YOU ARE DOING A AWESOME JOB IN GODS SERVICE! WE ARE PRAYING FOR YOU BACK AT REMEMBRANCE AND I AM ALSO FOR YOU.I KNOW THIS EXPERIENCE WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE!MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOUR TEAM AND ALL YOU DO.JESUS SAID WHAT YOU DO TO THE LEAST OF THESE YOU DO UNTO ME. MIKE DE GRAAF
dear jennifer, i am praying for you in soriti, keep up the good work! we are all proud of you back home. how is benji feeling now? its very cold here last couple weeks high of 20 low around zero , next week a little better around 30 ,so maybe we can take our shirts off, ha ha wish i was with you in the nice warm climate. take care jennifer ok? mike de graaf
dear jennifer, sounds like you guys have your hands full with all the little kids. i am praying GOD will give you the strength to continue and HIS grace to sustain you. you are truly a blessing to all those around you!it was nice to hear about soroti and to hear from benji. talk to you soon ,mkie de graaf.
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