Things God has been teaching me

Journal excerpts from the past few days...

9/24 Its been dry but rain always eventually follows the drought. Reminded today that my faith doesn't have anything to do with how I “feel”. I've felt tired and alone and frustrated and anxious and a whole range from ambivalent to furious. I've gone to God both disappointed and pissed off. But none of our circumstances change what is true of God. Reading through promises that I know to be true I'm reminded now that I don't understand the whole picture but I don't have to and I'm just here to be obedient.

Eph 2 I am his workmanship. He knew from the beginning that I would be doing this, struggling with these things. And even in this HE IS MY PEACE! Not things of this world, not my own strength or resources here. But He creates peace in me.

Phil 4:19 He will meet all of my needs, not my wants, but he knows, understands and WILL supply my needs.

II Thess 2&3 God is making me complete, sanctifying me. Somehow this means I'm blessed and set apart for a special purpose. (All believers are sanctified!) God is faithful. He will strengthen and protect me. None of this EVER changes.

There are so many of these promises. They go on and on. Yet, I'm stopped by how overwhelmed I feel. No matter what I experience God's truths are still well, true.



9/25  He emptied my hands of my treasure store,
And his covenant love revealed.
There was not a wound in my aching heart
The balm of his breath has not healed.
Oh, tender and true was his discipline sore,
In wisdom that taught & tried.
Till the soul that he sought was trusting in Him
And nothing on earth beside.
                -O.T. Deevers



9/27  Sitting on top of the falls. Look to the right, Karamoja spread as far as I can see in the early light. Can't help but wonder what the horizon holds. Time to start looking ahead again. Where do I begin?

I'm excited to think about the work that can be down out there. I know it is a hard place but I want the challenge. I want to see what God is going to do. How to begin? If I've learned nothing else in the last few weeks it is that I don't want to, nor can I, rely on myself. So Lord, lead the way. Show me the next step.